AnnaGore Screams

I can’t sleep. I really miss my boyfriend. This week has been a rough one indeed. Lately, father is being a jerk for I don’t know what reason. He said something that really hurt me. I don’t remember exactly what he said but it was something like; I shouldn’t have loved you. And accuse me and my boyfriend of things. Fucking annoying, I tell you..
After that big argument with him, I called up my boyfriend because I know that he could comfort me in every way possible. Told him everything about it. But I somehow got annoyed till I screamed at him. And that old man knocked on my (locked)door. I opened and he asked who I was fighting with. Told him that it was none of his business. Then he said that my boyfriend isn’t a man and shit. Fucking hell, I got so pissed off. Who the fuck is he saying shit about my boyfriend not being a man. Fucking parents. They hradly even know him, but dare say shitloads of crap about him. The next day, I really couldn’t take it, I just didn’t feel like going home, because everyone in this fucking house is a threat to my life, my relationship. So I stayed over at dearly beloved’s house. He made me feel at home. But then, at around 2am, that fucking bitch, came knocking on his door, luckily his brother helped us out. I thought it was over, but they told me she came around afternoon again. At that time, I was at work. She took his brother and sister’s number. I came home, got really pissed off because of it. That low-life woman looks down on his family but pretend to be nice to them. Fucking bitch. Just making use of them for her own good. Seriously, I do not wanna stay here anymore. I’d rather be away from here as far as possible. Just because I’m more privileged compared to him, that doesn’t make all you stuck-up people better than them. Stupid family…

26 more days! i’m really running out of time. damn it! it’s gonna be our 1st official anniversary and i still haven’t started doing what i’m supposed to be doing - his 1st anniversary gift. saying ‘i don’t have time’ would just be an excuse, because how can i not have time to do something for someone i love right? so yes, i am guilty of that. but whatever it is, i am going to make it happen. be it not enough rest or any stupid shit like that. i will and i am gonna make it happen. i’ll start by today. once i wake up, i’m gonna go out and get the stuff. i really can’t be such a fucking pig. i can’t tell you what it’s gonna be yet. haha because it’s a surprise. only i know what it is. you can say that there is still a lot of time, but to me, it’s not. i just want this to be perfectly perfect. just like this vision i have in my head. i don’t want my surprise to end up like what happened on his birthday(although it went ‘alright’). if i don’t start by today, it’s not gonna be perfect anymore. should’ve prepared it last month or something like that. but nevermind, it’s never too late for the most perfect date.. :)

on the 25th of march. that bitch spoiled my day by coming over to his crib. ugh.. i didn’t wanna go out of the room at that point of time. but i was damn hungry, so i had no choice. we wanted to go to the kitchen to find food at first. didn’t plan to go downstairs. as usual, my boyfriend wanted to go out of the room half naked. -.- i told him, “NO, go put on something” he argued back by saying that they seen him half naked before. so i asked, “even if you already have a girlfriend, you still wanna show off? things have changed here, so can you please put on some clothes?” and he did, i’m not sure how he felt but it was something nice. he also said that he likes it when i’m like this. i was flattered, but at the same time, i don’t like it when she’s around. i wonder how it’ll be when i wasnt around. thinking of it, would piss me off. so i shall not. hmpf! :< i just don’t like it when she’s nearby luhh. tsk… i wanna get married to him as soon as possible. so that we can move out of there away from everybody. then it’ll just be me and him, together forever. people i dont like wont know where he lives. i don’t think i even want his family to come over cuz i think they’ll be hogging around our house for a long time, cuz i know that our future house will be awesome as shit, then they’ll be jealous that they wanna stay there with us. haha no way man.. not gonna happen. once i’m married to him, he’ll be officially MINE. yes, all to myself. hmpf! gonna prepare for work now. ciao……

Why cheat on someone? Why cheat on someone who decided to commit to you?, Why cheat on someone who gave up time with their friends and family just to spend time with you?. They decided to settle for you and gave all of their heart to you, so why put someone who loves you with everything they have through this pain? Cheating should never be an option in a relationship, if the relationship gets boring then talk it out with one another and if you can’t save the relationship then end it rather then “Cheat”. Remain loyal and faithful to the person you are with because how would you feel if someone who you gave your all to turned around and cheated on you?, Some people say “Shit happens” when they cheat, but honestly that’s not how it works because it takes two people to cheat, it “Happened” because you let it happen, you let this situation take place. You know in your mind that it would hurt the other person if you cheated so you have the choice to say yes or no. So all I have to say is don’t risk this relationship and make a stupid mistake. Just be loyal and faithful to the person you are with, you know?

Just because i have tumblr doesn’t mean i use it every fucking day. | When you’re around, i turned it on so that i can show you things on here. And especially the things i wrote. Reminiscence. I don’t go on here every Fucking day, for shit. What’s the point if i show you good stuff and then you think otherwise? I guess by not showing you anything here is better. The more i show. The more you think im making up stories and bulshitting.. I realised i did all these for nothing.

i think that today is probably one of the bestest day in my life. i have so many good memories of my bestest days. this shall be one of the days! :D okay, so last night i was talking to my boyfriend. we were suppose to send my little sister but we overslept and he had really bad migraines. he woke up somewhere in the evening. i slept all the way till evening too. so when i woke up, i called him. we would usually ask each other the usual stuff when a couple talk to each other. so when i asked him back the same questions, they were total opposites. like ‘have you eaten?’. he said that there was no food at home(while there’s plenty at my house). i asked if he wanted me to send some to him, but he said yes but no. reasons are because it’s already late and we live 2hrs away from each other(i have curfew =[ ).. we hung up, he thought that i was joking. although i had a curfew, it never mattered to me. i decided to go over. i made up an excuse so that i can stay out a little while more. while preparing myself and some food, he called. i asked my little sister to tell him that i was taking a shower. she did. he thought she lied. haha. i quickly got ready everything and left the house as soon as possible.. two hours later, i reached. it was 08:45pm. usually i would have left his house around this time. latest would be 09:30pm. as you know, i have the key to his house, i crept in slowly. i thought he was in his room. i was thinking of sneaking in and surprise him. but as soon as i was about to enter his room, he went out. i think im probably exaggerating, but i gave him the shock of his life. hahahaha. but he was really happy to see me. started swearing at me. as usual. haha like how the birthday plan. but it was really adorable. he hugged me really tight, so did i. went to his room, i fed him rice, boiled eggs and chicken. not forgetting, i brought his favorite fruit too! Mangoes. =333 after everything, he wanted to send me home. but i told him that he cant. because it’s late and he’s sick. he never wanna listen. psh…. stubborn boyfriend. -.- haha so yeah, in the end, i gave in and allowed him to send me home. halfway through, he had to leave because he won’t be able to go home if he misses the last train. but i didn’t want him to go home. at the same time, i do because he’s not feeling well. i felt bad when he took the train home with me.. we reached under my apartment at 11:45pm. he stayed there fir a while. i told him that he could sneak into my house as soon as everyones asleep. at 01:25am, lights were switched off i made the bed and snuck him in. gave him something to eat and drink, we fell asleep. we had to wake up at about 4, let him take a shower, prepared, then he had to leave before the others wakes up. now hes outside waiting for me and my little sister. we’re gonna send her to school. now i have to prepare.. ciao.. :)))

eighteen more minutes till he wakes up. woke up early cuz i was excited for some reason. so i thought id go on tumblr and write something and reminisce about us. I guess it’s because I have this spur of the moment feeling where I miss him a little too much. ♥

as you all know, he’s working with the Singapore Civil Defense Force, still serving his national service. right now, i’m just feeling really insecure. 2 fire broke out and he’s there now doing his job. i may be over reacting but i have the rights to, don’t i? my heart is telling me that everything will be okay, and i know that my heart is right. but i can’t help but to worry about him. i have never felt so scared of losing him this way before.. :(